by Salma Sanam
Translated by Sheba Jamal Shazli (New Zealand )
Mary stood , on the way that goes from heart to mind , confused , bewildered and very much puzzled.She had the same dream again , Mother Mary stood alone heartbroken, bowing head and with no baby on her lap.Why ? Why did she has such dreams repeatedly ? It is said , and truly said , that intense thoughts appear on the screen of mind during sleep. The thought , the intense thought , the thought of being without baby, thought which keeps her always disturbed.The ray of light , entered into her womb , artificially , now shining brightly like Sun and very soon it would rise. But Mary was scared of losing her baby.Lots of women become mothers with strong feelings that the babies growing inside the wombs are their own. But Mary’s case was different. Mary was going to give birth to the baby which was actually Bhumika’s baby.George said , “This is surrogacy .”They would get heavy amount from Bhumika and her husband Ravi. To hell with such amount ! What did George do ? Why did he do business of her womb? “God , pardon me. I am sinner, grant me forgiveness .” Making Cross on her chest she was praying for forgiveness. Suddenly, she felt baby moving inside her womb. Very often it happened that she felt the baby jumping , grabbing , wailing , restless, inside her. Uff! , how compatible was it with her thought and imagination. Whatever the passion she was filled with, the baby too seemed to be affected .This unbreakable connection, eternal relation, immortal bondage, so much attraction , still it belonged to Bhumika and not to Mary . Why??How contemptuous science is !!“ George “ she tried George to support her.“ Is it so indispensable to handover the baby to Mr. Ravi ?”“ why ? “ he asked.“ we will raise and nourish this baby,” she said with confidence.“ This is not my baby, Mary,” George groaned, he couldn’t bear the burden of this child.“ George,” Mary got offended. The person , for whom she left the whole world, was not ready to support her. “ Don’t be emotional Mary, “ He guessed her emotions and cool down himself and said softly, “ What would you do with this child ? Would you like to bring it up in that dirty and foul world and he / she would grow and become the same person like what you were.”Uff!! Those sluttish , narrow lanes of Nehru Nagar ,those long drains full with garbage, where from open sewers , waste and faeces coming out , those countless huts made of small mud walls with roofs of dry grass and straws, and half naked men bathing in front , kids spreading dirt everywhere , stray measly dogs moved around. Mary grew in this environment with three or four black half-naked brothers.Her father laboured hard , half naked, under the hot Sun. And after taking drug in the evening , would fell into some drain.Her mother used to collect leftover fruits from the nearby market , with lots of flies moving around and over, and sell them to feed her kids.And there , in Manju Nath’s tin shed tea shop where a broken radio kept shouting all the time, Mary met George , a healthy and strong young man who worked there as a waiter . Her life was filled with happiness. All her desires, never expressed wishes, dreams converted into eternal pleasures. Her existence became a fragrant melody.They met everyday and discussed about the sweet dreams of their future.But only the dreams could not necessarily make future secured. It needed money.And George , her love , didn’t have money . Money , which Mary had always craved for. Money , which was essential for their cheerful and content life.And it was the fact that they didn’t have any money.George got a unique plan for getting money ____ surrogacy. Uff !! Such a huge responsibility and those dirty lanes of Nehru Nagar.Mary stood , on the way that goes from heart to mind , confused , She again had a dream. The shell opened and the shining pearl gone to Bhumika. And the existence of Mary like the empty shell drowning down the sea , and in the Church , stood alone , sad and heartbroken, bowing her head with empty lap, was not Mother Mary but it was Mary. !!